Resolve

This morning I heard from YU--they decided to go with another candidate. Although I was disappointed--it's been a long road since January--this rejection has also reminded me that I do not want to settle for any ol' position. I need to focus on opportunities that really excite me--like the one general manager position at YU and the account manager at Revolution Foods and the sustainability coordinator at Bentley Prince Street. At 28, I need to take the time to find the right next step for myself. I have spent many years of my twenties trying and experimenting and flitting from here to there. That is fine but, for the first time, I feel in my bones that I am at a different place and time in my life. I don't want to keep trying out things just because it's an opportunity. I am looking for the right oppportunity. And I need to be okay with taking the time to figure what 'right' looks like. I can never be disappointed in myself for trying, but I can definitely be upset if I don't learn from past experiences. I think it's also important to stay focused and on track. There is a reason why I went to Rady and chose to focus on the education and activities that I did. Note to self: Kai, don't be confused by the haze of uncertainty and never stop failing!